Saturday, April 18, 2009

sorry I've been away...

So, needless to say, I haven't "blogged" in a while. Blogging probably isn't even cool anymore. I blame my endless struggle with procrastination for my lack of, well, doing pretty much everything. Just so everyone doesn't take it personal (all six people who follow this) here are a few things I have not done that need to be done that an otherwise normal person would have:
  • change the oil in my car. a year overdue? no. that would be too responsible of me. try two.
  • hang up my clothes. I am thinking about this and I realize I probably haven't touched a hanger since Parker was born. Josh has, thank goodness.
  • clean out the car. it no longer has carpeting it has a junk mail coating at the bottom of it. Joey likes to eat receipts so at least there is less of those hanging around in there.
  • Call some friends back. now this is not funny to those of you who have called with wonderful intentions only to never hear back from me. please know that I want to talk to you, however, I am usually doing a lot at one time and I feel guilty calling people and not really even listening fully. I blame Parker fully for this one. so don't get mad at me, please. get mad at him. (how could you guys be so cold getting mad at a little baby?!?)
  • Put things on my walls. we have lived here since September and the living room has nothing up on the walls. the kitchen does but pretty much everywhere else is bare. I have a fear of committing to picture placement. if it can't be done perfectly I am not going to do it at all. actually...apply that theory to the next few things too.
  • organize my workspace at home.
  • clean my desk and cupboards at work.
  • Start Parker's baby album. This one makes me want to cry a little because he is growing SO fast. I want it to be perfect and beautiful. so of course I have a fear of disappointing myself so I just haven't started. which disappoints me. go figure.
  • many many more things that I have put of to be done at a later, undetermined time... but I tell you guys about those later. maybe.
I have not put off enjoying being a mom, though. I am trying to enjoy every second of parker's babyhood because I know it won't be here for long. Just his little smile makes me tear up with happiness and I don't want to miss anymore time with him than I absolutely have to. he is the best baby anyone could ask for and so much more...